Oh hello there, I’m Michelle, a 30 something year old living in Perth, Australia and I’m on a journey to lose over 60 kilograms (for my US babes thats 132 pounds).
I’m married to the sweetest guy ever, have 2 beautiful fur babies, Mitzy and Monty and am now at a point in my life where I’m ready to have babies – minus the fur. The only issue is… at this weight it’s too dangerous for me to conceive + I have PCOS which makes my menstruation cycle pretty much existent.
I’ve been documenting my weight loss journey/struggles over on my youtube channel for nearly 2 years. I lost over 15 kilos but gained most of it back this year.
Grab a cup of tea and biscuit (calories free of course) and enjoy my long journey of losing over 60 kilos, getting healthy and fingers crossed…..having a baby!
Want to get in touch with me? I’m pretty much a addicted to social media so you can find me on my Facebook page, Instagram, Pinterest, Twitter or my Youtube channel. If you prefer you can contact me directly here.
Keep on reading to find our more about my weigh loss journey
My Weight Loss Journey
It has been years in the making. As a baby I was pudgy, as a little girl I was chubby, as a teenager I was overweight and now that I’m an adult I’m Morbidly Obese!!! So to sum it up I’ve never been a “normal” weight!
When I was 9 my family moved from England to Australian and I had to enrol in a brand new school.
I have a vivid childhood memory from primary school of all the girls at my new school wearing “short” blue schools skirts that had pretty little pleats in them. My mum went to purchase one for me from the school office but they didn’t have a size that was big enough for me.
My beautiful mum didn’t want me to be the odd one out so she had a blue skirt made for me by one of her friends, but it didn’t look anything like the original. It hung way below my knees, had no pleats and looked like something a grandma should be wearing not a 9 year old.
That was the start of my confidence dropping, wanting to be “thinner” and my diet roller coaster.
From the age of 13 until around 16 I went through a tom boy phrase. No pretty, feminine clothes fit or looked nice on me so I wore boyish track pants that were waaaay to long for me and extra large t-shirts. I was constantly trying to lose weight but it was having the opposite affect.
Just like most girls, as I got older I started getting interested in boys, but the only trouble was no boys were interested in me. I started to dress a little more girly and I tried dying my hair blonde to make myself feel more attractive to boys but it went a “gorgeous” orange tone.
After high school I met a really funny Canadian guy called Jay. I weighed 95kgs and during the first 7 months that we were dating I lost around 10kgs. Everything was perfect, but I ended up getting a little too comfortable around him and put all the weight + some back on and rocketed up to 99kgs.
When I weighed myself and realised I was near 100kgs I freaked out!! I joined a weight loss club and lost 18.1kgs. I was 80.9kgs which is the lowest weight I have ever been during my adult years. I can remember I was SO SO SO happy at that weight. I could go into any clothes store and any item of clothes would fit me……but it was short lived!!
I got a job at a bakery, yes a bakery! I instantly gained 5kgs and went up to 85kgs . Jay and I had been planning a round the World holiday so a couple of months after starting my job we left on a whirlwind adventure. We went to Singapore, Germany, Canada, Hawaii and Fiji and had an AMAZING time!! Jay even proposed to me, aww!! As soon as we got back home I weighed myself and I remember distinctly the scales saying 93.8kgs. My heart sank!!
After out amazing holiday I started working back in the bakery and my weight slowly started creeping back up! This time I went over the 100kg mark and got to 102kgs. I remember thinking to myself “ok I’m gonna give myself over a year until my Wedding so I can lose weight and be a skinny bride”, but it never happened. I did lose weight, but not as much as I wanted to lose. I weighed 95kgs on my Wedding day. When I think back to my Wedding day I have so many amazing memories but I do regret not pushing myself harder to lose weight for my big day.
After our Wedding we settled down into married life and I gained 20kgs weighing in at 115.6kgs. I started my youtube weight loss channel on Decemeber 17th 2012 and lost 17kgs in 11 months bringing me down to 98.2kgs. But….you guessed it…the hubby and I went to Canada for Chrsitmas and I put on a few kilos going back up 101kgs. Then I gradually gained more and more weight during this year and got to 109kgs.
So you can see my whole life has been one big roller coaster of numbers. My husband and I are now ready to start a little family but I can’t have babies at this size. It wouldn’t be safe for me or a baby. I regret not losing weight for my Wedding day and I don’t want to have the same regret years to come if I don’t lose weight to have a baby.